Gym photo for the day. It’s a beauty! I was trying to walk on the treadmill, take the photo and NOT fall off. This is the picture I get when trying to do all those things at the same time. I can sorta be ok with a picture like this because I am not being serious. Layers people, many layers. My sense of humor is there in terms of my appearance but I am not sure if that is good or bad. Clearly I enjoy using humor to cover feelings. I’ll snap a bad photo of myself, no make-up, hair sweaty and pulled back looking awful and put a stupid grin on my face – I’ll post that picture for ya. But when I am in a mood where I feel bad about my weight, like now, just try to get me to take a decent photo – forget it!! This type of picture is meant to be funny. I can laugh to cause I’m not being serious. A picture that is intended to be good, for me, that invites judgment. Today was a good gym day though and good chit-chat with my friends. Trying to focus on that.
SOOOOOO, I changed the appearance of my site, don’t be alarmed. I believe everything has transferred over. Now I will be spending the next several days tweaking it. Eric never thought he’d hear me say some of the things I do now, computer type stuff. I am also going to make dinner tonight. At least it is something that I CAN make. It’s a dish that Eric likes and I don’t usually mess this one up.
Don’t let my down in the dumps about myself affect you. I don’t regret this journey. My feelings about weight go way back. I have always put a lot of pressure on myself when it comes to my weight. There was never pressure put on me, I did it to myself but I don’t know why and it comes and goes. I am one of the girls/women who struggle and don’t have an explanation as to why. I only want you all to take the positive from this blog. I can’t be a hypocrite though. I said this was a journey and there have been battles. How I see myself is one of mine. Stay positive guys, I will work on that as well. Focus on our positive goals!!!