Do you all ever have days when you just feel like everything within you is a fight? I certainly feel that way some days! I have been trying to keep my PMS at bay as much as possible the last few days. I can tell you that I have not been successful! Thankfully my husband and daughter find humor in my nibbiness and I acknowledge my grouchiness. We all make it through unscathed. I have been fighting emotions over my blog. Am I helping anyone? Am I saying anything that is useful? I don’t want to be shoving thoughts and information out there that isn’t viewed as helpful. I am not at all happy with my weight at the current moment. I have a couple pds. to drop to get back to my comfortable maintaining weight. Is that trivial? I can’t decide today. Epilepsy frustrates me so often. I’m reading so much more about it now. I read about some people’s situations and I wonder how they manage. Then I look at my dealings with epilepsy and am thankful.
Several friends tell me that I inspire others, I struggle with that. I think that is a hard thing to have sink in for most people isn’t it? I don’t look at myself that way. I guess people who inspire me probably don’t always think of themselves as inspirations either. We never know do we? I am certain that my cousin didn’t know I was going to see his posts on facebook today and think about what an inspiration he is. Yes, I do indeed have a heart. He made me smile today and even a little teary eyed and he doesn’t even know it. Am I answering my own question? Maybe so. I certainly think I could stand to give myself a little more “grace”. Another hard thing to do. We’re gonna struggle & battle within ourselves BUT we should always remember the above – you never know who you are inspiring.