Several days now since a post. I have been struggling to find much to say. I have debated taking a break from blog. I’ve talked with several people who have given me much appreciated advice. I hate that my blog has taken a negative turn. I don’t like some of the things I have shared lately and would take it back if I could. I put a lot of pressure on myself to blog some days. I started blogging daily and I often feel like I should continue doing that. After much thought and considering the advice I have received, I am going to continue but am taking it day by day. I want to share, that of course is the whole purpose of this blog but I want and need to get back to a positive spin. Debbie downer has to go. If I can’t stand reading what I write why should I expect you all to want to? Please don’t mistake my drive of positivity to mean that I am going to be rainbows and sunshine all the time. Pretty sure we all know I am too much of a jackhole for that to happen. My sarcastic spin is well received by you all and I am pretty sure I can find a way to share and not be negative. I may blog here and there for a bit or everyday if it hits me. I am finding it harder right now while my daughter is out of school. Gonna wing it for a few weeks.
I did mess up a couple of days ago and am starting over. I was doing pretty good but I decided, once again, that I knew more than those educated in the health and fitness area. I felt that having a B.S. degree in Political Science made me a bit more qualified and thus I decided to give my old ways a whirl. I can now tell you that it was a poor decision and now I will be paying the price. Two steps forward and then three steps back. I’ve told you all to have patience. Ha! My patience went out the window. Dusting it off and back up ready to start. I do want to work hard and figure this crazy game out that goes on in my head. I am open to the possibility that I’ll mess up again. I don’t want to but telling myself that I won’t is just a shit load of pressure. I need to find the trigger. That’s what Tony said to me the other day. I need to find the trigger that makes me want to go back to my old ways. Those of us struggling to get to a healthy place need to find our triggers. What makes us do the things we do that sabotage our success!