I am wondering when I will stop questioning everything. I have the will power to starve but I don’t have the ability to eat right and stay with it. I can’t seem to really give full effort to eating right, eating enough, eating healthy and staying consistent. I will eat a little food or I just go bat shit crazy. I admit that I wish I had never tried to change. I wish I had kept my eating ways to myself. I asked for help though and I am getting it but words are falling on deaf ears. Old habits will not leave me alone. The drive for the quick fix always takes over.
I am not the only one out there who feels like this. I know because some of you have told me you feel the same. Well, I know I am not getting better. My weight goals and my fitness goals are not where I want them to be. Basically I am ruining all the work I did to lose weight. I am taking two steps forward and then three steps back. My personality doesn’t allow me to take my eating habits seriously. I don’t truly think about how bad my inconstant eating does to me. So what do we do? Journal maybe? I know when I blog regularly I definitely do better. It’s obvious when I’ve had rough times, that’s when I don’t blog. So journal, keep track of your food and water and even how you feel. I’m going to do the same. I am back with My Fitness Pal. I tried Sparkpeople but it didn’t work. I love their website but they don’t have a phone app.
Share your struggles and successes with me people. Those of you who already do, keep it up. If any of you are interested in sharing, need accountability, let me know. E-mail me, facebook or twitter. My info is on my home page. I got my people that I need for support, you do the same!!