It’s been 4 weeks since my last blog. I was pretty frustrated when I last blogged – I had been told what my weight was. It took me several days to pull myself together and decide that I wasn’t going to give up. I whined in my last blog that Bailey would eventually get tired of listening to me bitch, I knew she really wouldn’t. Over the last several weeks she has pushed me harder while at the gym. She even got me to start running again. So I have been committed the last three weeks and I have done well. Every minute of every day hasn’t been easy but I have made it work.
So I have to tell you about something really cool. For Mother’s Day my husband got me a Fitbit. I love it!! He was able to get it in a plum/purple color which is awesome – Epilepsy Awareness! It has been amazing for me. This is going to sound crazy but it has given me a clear picture of the whole calorie thing. I never understood that we burn calories while functioning daily. Even while we sleep. I know that sounds ridiculous but I never really had a rational idea of dieting either. I have lived my life with either an extreme calorie limit or a reckless calorie over consumption. Now I have it right there, I can see what I am burning and I understand.
I set little goals for myself with the Fitbit and I like seeing the results. I was so excited when I pushed through my run at the gym. Bailey and I are branching out with our workouts at the gym and trying new things. I don’t feel like I am putting crazy pressure on myself to reach certain/crazy goals. It’s kinda fun. I was so consumed with weight loss goal last time that I can’t really even remember the process. I have good memories of course but at some point along the way I let joy be replaced by obsession. Good luck everyone! #riseabove