Such a beautiful day today in Chesapeake!!! I decided to sit down in front of the open windows and blog. Enjoy the fresh air, watch a Halloween movie and write. Then this happened. Milly decided she wanted a front row seat! She’s on the back of the couch and occasionally kicks me in the head when she needs to adjust her position.
I had a great weekend with food choices, weighed today and am down 4 more pds. 31 total in a little over 5 weeks. I’ve been motivated over these past weeks but passing the 30 pd mark was a huge goal. I don’t think there is any food worth jeopardizing my success! If the food isn’t on my list of foods I am allowed to eat, I’m not eating it!! I will repeat, this wasn’t easy. The first days sucked!!! I’ve had challenging moments here and there but I hung on, I promised I would. I knew I had to be ready for full commitment. I knew I had to give up foods that I was not prepared to give up. It was like I needed to hit that rock bottom moment. A simple moment in the grocery store with my friend Ann changed things. She said “you can do it, you’ve done it before”. She knew I hadn’t eaten the right way when I lost weight the first time and she reminded me of that. She just reminded me that I had the will power to do it. I knew what I needed to do!!
I can’t stress enough, sometimes we need help!! It is ok to admit that you need it. So many people try to lose weight and don’t want to seek support. The absolute best thing you can do is get support!!! I always tell my husband how I am feeling about myself and he will support me 100%. He will not bring temptations home & just encourages me daily. I have a gym buddy who encourages me and gets my butt to the gym. I’ve confessed my food weakness to Tony. It didn’t bring joy to admit to him that I was eating entire boxes of Swiss cake rolls. Wasn’t fun telling him how many calories I was eating in sugar and shit. I knew being honest with him was the only way I was going to get his help. I never hesitating in asking either because I knew he wasn’t going to judge me. I just knew I had to be prepared for his brutal honesty and to follow his rules. So get some support behind you, makes a world of difference!!!!
By the way, my gym buddy is so awesome!! She’s taking a major punishment for me. To support me in this journey, she agreed to do a personal training session when I got to 30 pds. She is SCARED TO DEATH!!! Love ya B!!!