I woke up this morning feeling really good and really positive.  I’m going to take that and roll.  I know my weaknesses and am going to address those. 

  1. I love soda.  I really want to cut it out.  I’m going to start by allowing myself one soda in the evening if I drink all required water for the day.  Just one though.  A treat to look forward to. 
  2. I am eating breakfast.  My go to diet is to cut out as much food as possible.  That is what I did for years.  Limited my food intake to an extreme. I always skipped breakfast but I know that puts me at risk to binge eat later.
  3. No late night eating.  Healthy dinner and then I am done.  I bought a flavored coffee and that will be my evening snack.  It has no sugar.    

I have a horrible history with weight loss.  Hunger pains make me feel successful but I can’t always stick it out.  Depends where my mindset is.  The reality is that I don’t know how to eat healthy.  I have the information and I know what to do. It’s implementing that’s the problem.  Can I actually take the information and do what I am told? I always want to revert back to calorie restriction. My mind tells me to restrict for a few days.  Then I either follow through with restriction or I binge eat and decide to try again the next day. That is my cycle.

So I have set clear goals! Fingers crossed.  #riseabove

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Good day all.  So I managed to get hacked!  I’ve spent hours trying to get my blog up and running.  My email that is linked to my blog was deleted which made it near impossible to get things going.  It is all too much!  All the social media and emails – Just everything!!!!!  I confess I easily get caught up in Netflix documentaries, shows like Criminal Minds and the Justice Files but after spending more time then I prefer on electronics, recovering info that I did not delete – I’ve just decided to scale things down.  All of our business is out there!!!  I’ve bailed from many social media sites, I deleted my fitepileptic facebook page and I have downsized my “friend” lists on facebook and Instagram.  I’m no longer on twitter, tumbler, google+, etc.  It’s just all too much. 

I’ve changed the look of my page and implemented some stronger security/filters.  Fingers crossed.  I’ve also changed the title of my page.  I blog, have blogged, am supposed to be blogging about being healthy, living a healthy life.  I’m not though.  I have struggled for so long.  I’m plum tired.  So thus the title – “Healthy Living. What does that mean”?  My answer?  I haven’t a fucking clue!!!!  I promise if and when I figure it out I will let you know!      

My website name is the same, I already own the domain – www.fitepileptic.  I don’t really like it though because I’m not fit. I am epileptic but apparently I shouldn’t say that about myself.  Some in the epilepsy community don’t like when people refer to themselves as epileptic (insert eye rolling emjoi here).  I don’t care, I can call myself what I want.  I can’t change the domain name so there.   

Maybe I’ll be back to blog, maybe not.  My history of consistent blogging isn’t good so I’m promising nothing.  Hope everyone is having an amazing summer! #riseabove  

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Friday was 11 weeks of no sugar.  Working the keto diet.  Possibly one of the hardest things I have done.  To date I am down 39 pds.  I’ve been at 39 for a couple of weeks BUT over Thanksgiving week I had family in town and then we were out of the area for a couple of days so I didn’t work out much.  I also wasn’t drinking enough water.   I know I would have broken the 40 mark had I remained focused on workouts and water intake so I am not without fault.  I’m still thrilled with my progress though so no complaints!!  Just pushing forward doing what I know I need to do.

Christmas is just three weeks away so I have the Christmas cookie battle ahead of me.  Cookies are a big no no for me!!  I fought a cookie battle the other day and I won!!  I have a daughter & she adores making Christmas cookies!  I can’t take that from her so I will be forced to shield myself with will power.  My favorite are Spritz.  I am the one who likes those most so I will not be making them.  My husband and daughters favorites I think I can pass up.  So that is my plan.  I just don’t have a choice!!  Cookie will power is in full force!!!  Have a great day all!!  #riseabove

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Today marks 7 weeks without sugar.  I didn’t lose any weight this past week but I lost 6 pds the week before and 34 overall.  No complaints from me.  Next Friday will be a photo comparison.

I did have a week moment a couple of days ago.  I weighed and was disappointed that my weight wasn’t down.  I got a little lecture reminding me that I lost 6 pds the week before and that I need to enjoy this whole process.  I totally forgot!  I’ve always wanted the immediate results and then I end up getting frustrated after a short time and ultimately give up.  I’m not allowing myself to do that this time.  I’m changing my eating habits.  This isn’t just “I’m on a diet”. I am eliminating sugar period.  So after that brief lecture, I’ve stayed focused and moved forward.  Focused and motivated.  So have a great weekend everyone!  #riseabove

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Just a quick post on this fabulous Thursday morning.  I’ve shared a lot about my diet recently and I’ve had many questions asked.  I’ve lost 34 pounds because I have followed the diet I was given to a T.  It may not be the diet/lifestyle for you.  This is what I asked for and what I have chosen to do.  I know my addiction to sugary foods and I sought help from someone who understands my struggles.  I’m definitely not suggesting that it’s right for everyone.

I was healthy and active all my life until I started working after college.  I gained weight and have struggled for a long time to get my weight under control.  When I lost a lot of weight a few years back, I did it wrong.  I starved myself.  I paid the price for that immediately because the weight came right back on when I started eating again.  The eating turned into binge eating.  Binge eating on sweets.  An amount that can not even be explained.  Eliminating sugar is what I have to do, what I want to do.

I blog about weight because my Dr.’s suggested I do it.  I have been able to lose weight even though I have epilepsy and am on three medications that can cause weight gain.  So I blog to motivate. It helps me and if it helps others that is great!!  I’m happy to share what I do but it doesn’t mean you have to do the same.  Find what works for you, we are all different.  #riseabove

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October has come and gone.  I made it through Halloween without eating more candy than I handed out.  I also didn’t dig through my daughter’s candy like I normally do after she goes to bed.  No candy and it was a nice change.  An accomplishment!  Our daughter was a Zombie Cheerleader this year.  Full on make-up with the whole liquid latex, ripped flesh oozing with blood thing!!  The days of Glenda the good witch are over!!

I’m blogging today about what I ACTUALLY eat.  I’ve had friends in-box me, email me, text me etc.  I am happy to share what I do.  First I must say that I didn’t figure this out on my own,  I have help.  Trust me I have been a pain in Tony’s side for like 4 yrs!!!  For those of you I have recently started chatting with – I go to his gym, Fitness 19.  He’s been trying to help me get this diet thing under control.

So Tony knows I have a sugar addiction and he know’s I have epilepsy. Multiple reasons for removing sugar from my diet.  The short summary is I eat meat and veggies.  A high protein AND high fat diet.  Good fats.  I cook with Olive oil, Coconut oil or grass fed butter.  The brand of grass fed butter I have found in my area is called Kerrygold.  Here are examples of meals:


Eggs and bacon or ham.  I’m not really a breakfast person so I drink coffee with grass fed butter and MCT oil creamy vanilla.  Here is a pic of the MCT oil.

image The web address is www.onnit.com & I find it very filling.  Drinking a couple of cups of coffee with the butter and MCT oil really fills me up til lunch.


Ham – I buy the ham steaks and cook those and keep it in the frig.  Leftover meat from the evening before.  Salad with avocados.  Avocados are an awesome fat.


Steak, fish (salmon, tilapia), pork and chicken.  Asparagus, salad with avocado, green beans, Butternut squash, yams with butter.  I do limit squash and yams – not an every week veggie but I do eat them.  Overall I don’t love veggies so I am learning.  My friend found a really good frozen veggie pack that is finely chopped cauliflower, peas and carrots and it’s delicious.

Those are some examples.  I make dinner for my family and we all pretty much eat the same.  My husband hates fish so I usually fix that on an evening he has a meeting so he doesn’t have to see it or smell it.  They all pretty much like the foods.  If I make them potato soup for example, something I can’t have, I just fix myself a burger with avocado – yummy!!  I just modify.  It works for me and I do feel really good.

I have had great success so far.  34 pds in 6 weeks.  This hasn’t been an easy change but it is the first thing that has worked for me.  I’ve never been able to lose weight eating.  I only know how to lose weight by basically starving – that is not a permanent fix!!!!  So there you go, I hope that helps a bit.  Please feel free to continue to ask questions.

If you struggle as bad as I have/do,  I can’t stress enough how important it is to seek support.  Keep any Dr.’s you have informed and just find someone really good to help you.  Best of luck! #riseabove

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Today marks 6 weeks since I stopped eating sugar.   I have lost a total of 34 pounds.  From 10/21 to 10/28 I lost 6 pounds.  Cravings for sugar are pretty much gone.  I occasionally crave a soda but for the most part it’s much easier.

Going to the grocery store is so much easier as well.  I don’t fine myself wishing I could eat certain foods.  I have found new foods that taste great and are on the list of foods I am allowed to have. This past Sunday we had steak & asparagus for dinner and it was delicious.  I definitely ate more steak than my husband & I still lost weight.  I am loving avocados and am completely obsessed with the Onnit MCT oil that I put in my coffee.

This has been a life changing diet for me.  I truly didn’t think it was possible to lose weight and eat.  Over the past 4 years, no matter what Tony said to me, I just couldn’t make myself commit to a healthy diet.  I wanted to do what he said but I just couldn’t do it without starving and then bingeing.  I’ve spent 4 years wasting his time and mine.

It is time for me to let that all go.  Of course I’m annoyed that at Halloween 4 years ago I weighed around 138 pounds but there is nothing I can do about it now.  I need to focus on my success now and just be happy with it.  Have a great weekend!  Happy Halloween!  #riseabove

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If you haven’t seen this, watch. It’s motivational. Rule Yourself – I love that!!!

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Such a beautiful day today in Chesapeake!!!  I decided to sit down in front of the open windows and blog.  Enjoy the fresh air, watch a Halloween movie and write.  Then this happened.  Milly decided she wanted a front row seat!  She’s on the back of the couch and occasionally kicks me in the head when she needs to adjust her position.

I had a great weekend with food choices, weighed today and am down 4 more pds.  31 total in a little over 5 weeks.  I’ve been motivated over these past weeks but passing the 30 pd mark was a huge goal.  I don’t think there is any food worth jeopardizing my success!  If the food isn’t on my list of foods I am allowed to eat, I’m not eating it!!  I will repeat, this wasn’t easy.  The first days sucked!!!  I’ve had challenging moments here and there but I hung on, I promised I would. I knew I had to be ready for full commitment.  I knew I had to give up foods that I was not prepared to give up.  It was like I needed to hit that rock bottom moment.  A simple moment in the grocery store with my friend Ann changed things.  She said “you can do it, you’ve done it before”.  She knew I hadn’t eaten the right way when I lost weight the first time and she reminded me of that.  She just reminded me that I had the will power to do it.  I knew what I needed to do!!

I can’t stress enough, sometimes we need help!!  It is ok to admit that you need it.  So many people try to lose weight and don’t want to seek support.  The absolute best thing you can do is get support!!!  I always tell my husband how I am feeling about myself and he will support me 100%.  He will not bring temptations home & just encourages me daily.  I have a gym buddy who encourages me and gets my butt to the gym.  I’ve confessed my food weakness to Tony.  It didn’t bring joy to admit to him that I was eating entire boxes of Swiss cake rolls.  Wasn’t fun telling him how many calories I was eating in sugar and shit.  I knew being  honest with him was the only way I was going to get his help.  I never hesitating in asking either because I knew he wasn’t going to judge me.  I just knew I had to be prepared for his brutal honesty and to follow his rules.  So get some support behind you, makes a world of difference!!!!

By the way, my gym buddy is so awesome!!  She’s taking a major punishment for me.  To support me in this journey, she agreed to do a personal training session when I got to 30 pds.  She is SCARED TO DEATH!!!  Love ya B!!!

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The above quote rings so true for me.  I have struggled for a long time giving up certain foods.  For me to lose weight, it was easier for me to eat very little or to eat nothing and starve.  I have never wanted to give up what I like.  At times I assumed I could be successful with portion control.  The reality for me is that once I eat the carb and sugar packed foods that I love so much, I am going to binge on those foods.  The bingeing isn’t for a few hours or a day or two, it’s weeks!  Not one Little Debbie cake but the whole box.  I don’t mean a box over the course of a week, I mean in a day or two!  Once I start the bingeing process I can’t stop.  I’ve always been one way or the other.  Eat very little or eat a ton!!  This diet I started 5 weeks ago hasn’t been easy.  I promised to eat as I was told and my appetite has really been curbed from those intense cravings.  Of course I have moments or days here and there where I think about cake or cookies BUT nothing like before.  The last five weeks have been the most successful I have ever had in my life and I have stuck to a good program.

So my payoff, today I checked my weight and I lost another pound!  I’m so excited – 27 pounds lost in five weeks.  Hitting 30 is going to be awesome.

Good luck to each of you in reaching your goals, no matter what they are.  Push through and stick it out.  Have a great weekend! #riseabove

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